Note To Self
It’s okay not to be okay, the sky also cries sometimes remember everything is going to be alright after the rain comes the sunshineDear Aida,
When will you take care of yourself? When will you take care of your feelings? When will you forgive yourself? When will you stop thinking that you're not good enough? When will you stop comparing your life to others? When will you stop being afraid of everything?When will you stop getting mad at yourself for not being productive? When will you stop worrying about everything? And the most important thing, when will you love yourself?
Dear Aida,
It's okay if you have some 'me time' everyday, it's not procrastinating.Self care is important. It's okay to spend some time doing things you love, like watching Youtube videos, or showering slowly, or even spend some time doing your skincare routine. Take your time. Don't have to overwork. It's always okay to rest. Go get enough sleep. Sleep heals, right? Sleep until you feel better. You don't have to stay up all night just to prove that you're not lazy, you've worked hard, people might not see it, but you know that you work hard for yourself, right?
Work hard for no one but yourself. You know how hard it is to satisfy yourself heh. Stop worrying too much about exams, just focus on your study. It will all work out :)
Things work out in mysterious ways or they don’t work out at all. You will either “live happily ever after” or cry and hate yourself for letting your heart go. Don’t give up. Please do yourself a favor, don’t lower your standards just to fit in. Be confident to find people who will encourage you to keep growing. Don’t measure your progress using someone else’s ruler.
Dear Aida,
You can find happiness within yourself. Enjoy every little things. You will find a balance to life again. Everything will be okay. Don't you know that you always make people laugh because of your personality? It's obvious that people love being your friend. Sometimes you always act childish and clumsy just to make people around you smile and laugh. You love it when people smile and laugh because of you. It's an amazing feeling, right? So why not you make yourself smile and laugh too? It's always okay to be silly and weird, if that pleases you. Go watch funny videos of iKON, laugh out loud. And yeah, stop being serious. Don't pressure yourself too much, okay?
Be happy, smile more :) Don't you know you look the prettiest when you're smiling? And you look the ugliest when you're crying, ew haha. So yeah, don't cry too much :')
Dear Aida,
Life is always hard. Everyday you have to 'fight' with yourself. Everyday you have to fake a smile, right? Deep inside you're not happy at all. You might be super noisy in class, especially around your best friends. But when you're alone, you'll start to overthink, you'll start to worry about everything, and you always told yourself that you're afraid of everything. You're always afraid of future, you're always afraid of being a dissapoinment, you're always afraid of not being good enough, you're always afraid if you won't be able to battle your own battles.
You always feel worthless and useless. You ignored and stayed away from people around you, just because you think you don't want them to know this side of yours. You told people on social medias that your're just a boring person, you told them that you're not good at maintaining a long-lasting relationship. Do you still remember, back then when you never cared about what people think of you and you used to talk a lot in Facebook, Twitter etc? You used to be so talkative and fearless. Why you changed?:(
Oh, you never feel proud of yourself, right? People always praise you, actually. People always praise you for your nice drawings or school works. But you always say to yourself that your drawings/works aren't good enough, you can spot the flaws everywhere, you rarely feel satisfied with your works. You're your biggest critic, indeed. Oh dear, you need to remember that nobody's perfect..Learn to be proud of your achievements. Some people admires you because of your amazing talents. Please, stop thinking that you're not good enough. You’re never doing as bad as you think you are, and there is always room for you to do better. You are a perfect work in progress, always becoming a more refined piece of yourself. Accepting that you are a work in progress does not mean devaluing where you stand now.You are more worthy and lovable than you can ever imagine, and simultaneously not as important as you make yourself out to be. You are more than the black and white thinking you assign to yourself. You're not an error or a failure or a burden. You matter; you're important. You have a voice and you should never have to silence it. Your mind is brilliant, even though you may doubt it at times. You are all these things and so much more. You're smart; You're beautiful; you're funny; You're strong. One day YOU WILL BE TRULY HAPPY. You'll get through it. Whatever you do, don’t quit. Once you fold is when you fail. Stay faithful. Stay focused. Stay humble. Stay patient. It’s hard, of course, but you have to keep going. Don’t worry. Stay patient. Keep believing. You’ll be okay.
I love you.
Sincerely,
'The Positive Aida'
You can do it :) Don't give up.
Wednesday, February 10, 2016 • February 10, 2016